aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! finally! a NEW YEAR!! man, i'm SO looking forward
to it! i mean, i had one messed up year last year. ANYthing would be an improvement!
oh yeah. even that nitwit Bush blowing up the world would be an improvement! THAT is
how bad a year i had last year.
one final note on the whole christmas thing,...shouldn't they make the day AFTER
christmas a holiday? i mean, if you ask me, i know as many people that look forward
to the day AFTER christmas as do look forward to the day OF. it seems like the clouds
open up, you can breathe deeper, you can actually feel the days getting longer once
again,...it's like the BEST day of the year! think about it! on the day AFTER christmas
you are as FAR AWAY from christmas as you can possibly get!! isn't that a delicious
thought??? YEAH!! so let's make it OOOOOfficial then! the day AFTER christmas is from
this day forth a holiday!!

ok,...on to other things,...sorta,...

the birds.
i guess i've gone and done it this time. i've really pissed them off. sheesh. can
birds access the internet??? are one of you guys narcing me out to them???
the other morning i'm running late right? so i run out the door down the steps to
my car,...and go into shock.
my car,...
is covered in bird crap.
bird CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
are you kidding me??? i know about the whole flocking together thing,...but do they
CRAP together too???
and it wouldn't have been so bad but i drive a WHITE camry!!!
i can't begin to tell you how embarassing it was to drive into town in a car that
looked like some kind of advertising promotion for 101 dalmatians!!!
and if you don't believe how bad it was i took a picture of it with my cellphone!
i'll send it to you!!
so i get home from running my errands and wash it off.
the next morning,...
more bird crap.
and THEN the next day two MORE dive bombed my car on the way to work!!
it's like i'm stuck in a alfred hitchcock movie!!!
*sigh*
look. can one of you guys help me out with this? you got any bird connections? tell
'em sorry. something. ANYthing. heck, i'd wave a white flag but they'd probably
crap on that too!!

moving along,...

over the holidaze i got to watch more than enough television. *joy* but it was sorta
cool. spending time with the kids, the baby, etc,...
there's this one show called the backyardigans. you guys know about this? it's SOOO
stupid that i like it!! even the theme song is really dumb!! i like it too!! heh.
most kid's shows these days are sorta weird, creepy and kinda perverse. even by MY
standards. but anyway, these backyardigans are a trip. you got pablo the penguin,
tyrone the moose and then you got uniqua,...i have NO idea what she is. is she a bug?
is she an alien? what the hell is she??? it's like that whole disney character debate
back in the day. mickey is a mouse. donald is a duck. pluto is a dog. but what the hell
is goofy??? is he a dog too? if so, how can you have SOME dogs that walk and talk and
SOME dogs on all fours?? it just ain't natural!! that's not disneyland! it's planet of the apes!
uhm,...so anyway,...
another show i got really hooked on is dexter. oh man. i LOVE dexter! he's this
serial killer that works for the miami PD as a forensic scientist that specializes in
blood patterns at crime scenes!! it's quirky! it's dark! it's funny! it's edgy! it's sexy!!
it's something for the WHOLE family!! heh. me and the baby had a dexter marathon and watched
EVERY episode over and over!! good times!!

oh! one last thing! man i don't know what's going on with my from hell - johnny depp piece
but it's like off the charts lately! i know i know, i have it as my feature and all,...THAT'S
the reason! you guys have been hittin' it so hard lately! much appreciated!!

aite.
so i hope you guys are having a great new year so far!
be good to one another!
later!
-d

so in case you're not keeping up, here are my recent offerings at
resurgere:

now hurry! go get 'em! take 'em home! have 'em with fava beans and a nice chianti!
make 'em your sex slave! just do it! do it now!!!
uhm. oh yeah! and for those wondering about the missing packages, we've gotten about
half of them restored! currently working on the rest! me and Shawnkar wanna thank YOU
all for your patience! AND we'd like to thank YOU all for helping us to crack 600K recently!!
you guys rock!!

*a very diversely eccentric songlist this time. oh. don't even say it! i know
what you're thinking,...'d? not one but TWO dixie chick selections???? wtf???'
hey! i've already caught enough crap about it from my family! aite? they were like:
'omg. dad's FINALLY getting old!'
'can i have your snoop dogg cds???'
'can i have your killer cds???'
'can i have your porn???'
*groan*
look. i just got to thinking that since i sit around fantasizing about gettin' it
with the chicks all the time i should at least drop the needle on one or two of
their tunes,...you know? so i did. what can say? man i caught that line:
'It can get pretty lonely when you show yourself'
i was like,...'oh shit. that's ME!'
so now i'm checkin' out the dixie chicks,...AND fantasizing about gettin' it with 'em.
heh.*

001: Silversun Pickups - Melatonin
002: The Shins - Phantom Limb
003: Dixie Chicks - The Long Way Around
004: Pimp C - I'm Free
005: Robyn Hitchcock - The Ghost In You (Psychedelic Fur cover)
006: The Hold Steady - Chillout Tent
007: Silversun Pickups - Well Thought Out Twinkles
008: Robyn Hitchcock - Madonna Of The Wasps
009: Ryan Adams - Wonderwall (Oasis cover)
010: Dire Straits - So Far Away
011: Bob Dylan - Jokerman
012: Smashing Pumpkins - 1979
013: Prince - Purple Rain
014: Dixie Chicks - Baby Hold On
015: Everlast - Ends

okokokok! everybody settle down! there's not much time and i've got alot to cover!
sheesh. gotta get back to this stoooooooooooooopeeeeeeeeeed xmas thing. taking the
baby to see the lights a little later. whoop...ee. wouldn't be so bad but i'm
forbidden to have a little drink before we go. something to do with my having a little drink
before taking the 15 year old driving the other day. HEY!! HE was driving! not ME!!!
is that a crime???
uhm.
yeah.
turns out that's a crime.
*groan*
fuckit.
so anywaaaaaay,...

speaking of lights,...i truly hope you cats got outside to see the geminids last week.
it was AWESOME!! i even managed to drag the whole clan out to see them with me. we
had hot chocolate and roasted a virgin. a grand time was had by all!

OH!!! before i forget!!! maybe you guys have noticed a few changes with the journal?
yeah? yeah? you bet you have!! big LOUD love goes out to my pal kuschelirmel for this
badAZZ CSS eyecandy!! THANKS JAZ!!! hope you managed to find something to do with
that crap i sent ya!!


ok. a couple of more things,...
i know about the advanced photoshop magazine thing and them having one of my textures on
their cd. i'm thinking it has to do with an article that involves the incredibly talented
foxfires and permission was given. i appreciate you beautiful people's concern. especially
you chix0r.
also, i know about my stuff showing up at the official james o'barr website. thanks to all
you guys who found me by way of that cool site!
lastly, me and shawn (wroth) will be uploading new packages at resurgere very soon to replace the
80 plus/1000 plus packages/images that somehow disappeared about a year ago. sorry for the
delay! and watch for some new stuff soon as well!!

aite. so the smoking section will be where i entertain you to no end with my whining,
bitching, moaning and endless rants about nothing of any significance at all.
HEY!!! where are you guys going???? get back in here!!!
pft. just for that i'm gonna hit you up with a few quickies anyway!!

The DULL Vinci Code. you know, i can't believe i'm ragging on this yet again myself.
but i saw were you can NOW get The Da Vinci Code Special Edition Giftset for (get this)
$80.95!!! i thought i was SEEING THINGS!!! you know, i would say i can't hardly believe
that someone would pay that kind of money for such crap but, actually, i do. heck. i wish
i could get the $3.50 back i spent on renting it!! but $80.95???!!
oh. but wait. it Includes an 'authentic, working cryptex, and replica Robert Langdon Journal.'
well then. hold the presses. that changes everything.
obviously within the cryptex lies the secret plans to design a time machine that will enable
you to travel back in time to retrieve the 2 and a half hours of your life that you lost
while watching the movie.
uhm. i take it all back then.

TV Poker. why is poker on my tv?? why is it on EVERY OTHER CHANNEL?? even ESPN??? since
when did poker become a sport??? hell, let's make MONOPOLY a sport! why not make trivia a sport!!
good grief, about 5 minutes of this mind-numbing excitement is all it takes and i find myself
looking forward to mtv real world coming on!!
look, the only way you can make tv poker REMOTELY entertaining would be to give the
players a bottle of jack daniels AND a loaded gun!! either that or make it STRIP poker
and sit jenna jameson down at the table,...WITH a LOSING hand!! otherwise it might as
well be golf!

Birds. i like birds. honest. i do. but how are these creatures NOT instinct???
how do they keep flying into my car when they have ALL that air space??? are al queda training them???? WTF???!!

Vice President Dick Cheney calls Donald Rumsfeld 'the best defense secretary the U.S. ever had'.
when i heard that the VP had actually uttered those words i had to remind myself to BREATHE!
how did anyone in that audience keep a straight face???!!
sadly, i know people that agree with that assessment. i love those people. but it makes
parts of my body hurt that probably shouldn't to even be in the room with them when they
talk shi...erhm...talk politics.

The Senior Citizen Rush Hour Automotive Annoyance Squad. uh. what else is there to say?

*hey. everyone else is always going on and on about what they're
listening to. i thought i'd bore you with some of mine. this was this summer's last
volume of south beach sounds. sorry kids. no dixie chicks. no soundtrack to cows
pissing on flat rocks either. heh.*

001: Oasis - Acquiesce
002: dEUS - If You Don't Get What You Want
003: Primal Scream - Dolls
004: Our Lady Peace - 4 AM
005: TV On The Radio - Wolf LIke Me
006: Our Lady Peace - 4 AM
007: The Shins - Phantom Limb
008: Teddybears w/Iggy Pop - Punkrocker
009: Anberlin - Enjoy The Silence
010: The Hold Steady - First Night
011: The Lemonheads w/J Mascis - No Backbone
012: Brand New - Mix Tape
013: Jet - Put Your Money Where Your Mouth Is
014: The Lawrence Arms - Your Gravest Words
015: The Killers - When You Were Young
016: Face to Face - The KKK Took My Baby Away
017: The Morning After Girls - Run For Our Lives
018: The Dandy Warhols - Good Morning
019: RUN RUN RUN - Wait Up For You
020: The Brian Jonestown Massacre - Evergreen

yep. it's that time of year. i wish all of you the very best.
i know what this time of year means for most of you.
you press your cute little noses against the window, getting all giddily bitch-a-fied
watching things get all brown, cold and lifeless outside as you prepare to sit down for
a feast of your favorite dead beast nearly jumping out of your skin at the slightest
sound running toward the door in hopes that its the UPS dude delivering your limited
edition thomas kinkade autographed christmas ornaments that you ordered off
eBay from the congregation of the greater holy temple church of thomas kinkade of the
apostolic faith.
yep. it's that time of year.
been a year of big changes for me. but,...sometimes you go where the flow takes ya.
you know?
doesn't mean that you stop swimming against the current however.
keeps ya strong.
so stay strong out there.


d

so the other day i saw nobody for the first time in years.
reminded me of a parable he once told. went something like this:
there was once this little baby bird that felt it was time to spread his wings
and try to fly. so he jumps out the nest only to fall straight to the ground.
he began walking until finally it started to get dark. and cold. so he began
chirping and chirping growing more afraid and cold as the sun went down. then
along came a cow that heard the little bird's chirping and it felt pity on the
little bird. so it walked over to the scared, cold little fella and lifted it's tail
and dropped a big old cow patty on the little bird. now the bird was nice and
warm in the cow patty but before long it got restless and began chirping and
chirping again. making a terrible racket. finally along came a coyote. he
eased over to the little bird sitting there in the cow patty, picked him up
and dusted him off. then swallowed him whole.

the moral to the story is this,...
not everyone that throws dirt on ya is out to hurt ya.
not everyone that pulls you out of the dirt is out to help ya.
either way,..
When you're up to your nose in shit, keep your mouth shut.